Festibility: Prompt Post
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access_fandomWelcome to the Festibility prompts post!
Festibility is a fandom festival accepting all kinds of fanworks (fic, meta, art, icons, podfic, vids, recs, picspams, drabble sets etc) about disabled characters. Works can focus on canonically disabled characters or canonically able-bodied characters that you reimagine as disabled. Pieces can be as long or short as you like. You can find out more at the Festibility announcement post on access_fandom!
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ETA: Please state one of the following on your work: "No warnings apply", "Choose Not to Warn" or include warnings/content notes mentioning any triggering material that does apply to your work. Marking your work in this way helps people with triggers to navigate the Festibility responses. Thank you! /ETA
Warn for common triggers even if the prompt implies some. You must warn for common violent or sexual triggers. Unwarned stories/art are subject to immediate screening at the mods' discretion.
o Triggers to warn for:
o non-con, dub-con, and rape
o character death
o suicide
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o incest
o underage (under the age of 18)
o extremely ableist language
o mind control
o If you are uncertain if you should include a warning, better safe than sorry.
The above list is not all-inclusive or meant to be limiting: people can and should warn for other things. You can gray out warnings or spoilers using this code that amadi posted, which also works for screenreaders.
If you have a policy of not warning, you must put "Author does not warn" in the subject line. Failure to do so will result in immediate screening/deletion.
Post links to NSFW images or images that require warnings. Do not embed them.
Single prompts can be answered as many times as you wish.
Anonymous posting and commenting is allowed.
Language reminder: Please say “has diabetes”, don’t say “suffers from diabetes” or “suffers hearing loss” when describing someone’s disability. Please say “uses a wheelchair” or similarly neutral language, do not say “wheelchair bound” or “confined to a wheelchair”. Please do not use ableist or other oppressive pejoratives such as “lame”. For more about inclusive language, click on the language tag of this community. Also, please do not include disabilities in your content warnings--It is disrespectful to cast a piece of someone's identity as a warning.
ETA: There have been some concerns raised about this language policy. For clarification, this language reminder is meant more for prompt suggestion than for actual fic. You are allowed to use whatever language you like in your fan fic. If there is a lot of ableist language in your fic, we would prefer that you warn for it in your fic headers. You are also welcome to address the negative as well as the positive aspects of living with a disability.
Thank you for participating! Let the prompts begin!
Festibility is a fandom festival accepting all kinds of fanworks (fic, meta, art, icons, podfic, vids, recs, picspams, drabble sets etc) about disabled characters. Works can focus on canonically disabled characters or canonically able-bodied characters that you reimagine as disabled. Pieces can be as long or short as you like. You can find out more at the Festibility announcement post on access_fandom!
Here’s how the prompts will work:
Prompts can be general or fandom- or character-specific. You can also choose to specify a type of disability. Be creative and have fun. Post prompts now through September 15th!
Fills can be posted starting Thursday, July 15th and the posting period goes until September 15th. We encourage you to post disability-centric fanworks to
access_fandom after the close of the fest. After September 15th, please post to the community instead of commenting here, and link back to the prompt (if any) that inspired you. Nest Your Responses. Respond directly to a prompt with the text of your story in the comment or a link to the story if it is posted elsewhere.
Anonymous commenting is allowed. To post anonymously when logged in, click on 'More Options' and pick 'Anonymous'. Do not ask anyone to reveal themselves if they choose to post anonymously.
Warnings:
We want warnings to be a community standard for this festival. If you need help putting warnings on your fan work, please ask your beta or contact a moderator. We accept “Choose Not To Warn” as a warning, but in the interest of making this fest as accessible as possible we prefer to have works be labeled with specific trigger warnings.
ETA: Please state one of the following on your work: "No warnings apply", "Choose Not to Warn" or include warnings/content notes mentioning any triggering material that does apply to your work. Marking your work in this way helps people with triggers to navigate the Festibility responses. Thank you! /ETA
Warn for common triggers even if the prompt implies some. You must warn for common violent or sexual triggers. Unwarned stories/art are subject to immediate screening at the mods' discretion.
o Triggers to warn for:
o non-con, dub-con, and rape
o character death
o suicide
o self-injury
o child abuse
o graphic torture
o incest
o underage (under the age of 18)
o extremely ableist language
o mind control
o If you are uncertain if you should include a warning, better safe than sorry.
The above list is not all-inclusive or meant to be limiting: people can and should warn for other things. You can gray out warnings or spoilers using this code that amadi posted, which also works for screenreaders.
If you have a policy of not warning, you must put "Author does not warn" in the subject line. Failure to do so will result in immediate screening/deletion.
Post links to NSFW images or images that require warnings. Do not embed them.
Single prompts can be answered as many times as you wish.
Anonymous posting and commenting is allowed.
Language reminder: Please say “has diabetes”, don’t say “suffers from diabetes” or “suffers hearing loss” when describing someone’s disability. Please say “uses a wheelchair” or similarly neutral language, do not say “wheelchair bound” or “confined to a wheelchair”. Please do not use ableist or other oppressive pejoratives such as “lame”. For more about inclusive language, click on the language tag of this community. Also, please do not include disabilities in your content warnings--It is disrespectful to cast a piece of someone's identity as a warning.
ETA: There have been some concerns raised about this language policy. For clarification, this language reminder is meant more for prompt suggestion than for actual fic. You are allowed to use whatever language you like in your fan fic. If there is a lot of ableist language in your fic, we would prefer that you warn for it in your fic headers. You are also welcome to address the negative as well as the positive aspects of living with a disability.
Thank you for participating! Let the prompts begin!
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Date: 2010-07-12 06:59 am (UTC)Commentfic, "After the War," Tony Stark, PTSD
Date: 2010-07-16 04:23 am (UTC)I haven't watched the movie in quite a long time, so there is a little bit of me playing fast and loose with the timeline. And hey, it's nice to post this on the right day after getting the timeline mixed up. :D?
The first thing Tony does when he gets back into his lab is rearrange everything.
It takes him the better part of a month to realize that no matter where he’s sitting to work, he can see the door.
*
He adds the additional security codes to get into the lab a little bit after that. Just him, Pepper, Rhodey, and Obadiah.
Pepper cocks her head to the side when Tony tells her. “What are the chances of someone getting past the other house security?”
Tony waves her away, irritated. “If they’re good enough to get past the house security, I think we can assume they’re determined. So, added security. There’s nothing wrong with making it as hard for them as possible.”
Pepper doesn’t say anything else.
*
His first priority is to redesign his own personal power source to something that’s a) not made out of spare parts while in a cave and b) somewhat more aesthetically pleasing. He’s perfectly aware his priorities are not like most people’s and he does, of course, make other improvements. If push comes to shove, he could probably live with something ugly if it kept his heart beating.
When he finishes, he holds the reactor in his hand and stares at it. He waits for the elation, but it doesn’t necessarily come like he was expecting. He’s done what no one else in the entire fucking world could do (because he is a god of engineering and technology) and he should be jazzed.
But whatever, he chalks it up to exhaustion, settles on the chair, and pops the old version out of his chest.
...and he can’t make himself put his hand in and replace it with new reactor.
So he calls up Pepper, has her do it, and tells her to toss the old reactor. He imagines crushing it into a tiny little cube that could be flushed down the toilet, along with all the crap about the fucking cave and the fucking car battery and Yinsen with holes in his chest.
*
The first couple times he has runs of not being able to sleep, Tony honestly doesn’t even notice, because he’s always operated on a sleep schedule dictated by the terms of whatever he was working on. If he needed to plow eighteen hours through, then he did and sleep the sleep of the just when he’d successfully finished the project.
And he is working, of course. First with the reactor in his chest, then with version two of the suit.
A night comes where he’s finished a stage of the new suit and he can’t start working on the next until some hardware arrives. He has a nice dinner with Pepper and unwinds with a couple beers. He’s planning on crashing and hopefully getting back to work the next morning.
When three am comes, he’s laying in bed, staring at the ceiling and wondering why the fuck he can’t get his heart to slow down.
*
The thing is, he sort of expected to have nightmares, in the way that he sure as fuck didn’t tell anyone. What the hell kind of grown man has nightmares?
What he isn’t expecting, is that when he can convince himself to shut down, is just how bad the nightmares turn out to be. Sometimes he’s on fire. Sometimes he’s trapped in the old suit, but it won’t turn on and he can hear the rattatat of gun fire. Sometimes he’s watching Yinsen die.
Tony gets really fucking tired of waking up to sound of his own harsh, strangled breath clawing out of his chest while his heart slams against his ribs and his hands claw at air and bedsheets.
*
Sometimes, in the deadest part of the morning when he’s sitting down in his lab staring at blue prints that he can’t make sense with exhausted eyes, Tony feels like he’s losing his mind. Or maybe he has lost his mind and he’s really still back in the cave and this is his way of escaping.
What’s weird, though, is that he can still get dressed, put on a suit, go smile and shmooze upset investors and have no one know.
He’s a great actor, or something.
*
Here’s the scene. Tony’s working on the second suit, half listening while Pepper almost cheerfully recites the newest numbers fallout from his announcement about Stark Industries. Tony’s repeating that he doesn’t care about the investors, they can go fuck themselves, and Obadiah needs to calm the hell down and trust Tony.
And then something gets knocked over by one of the robots. It’s happened a goddamn thousand times since Tony built the thing, but not since he got back.
And he knows what happened, he knows specifically because it’s happened so many times before. But it doesn’t actually matter in the moment that the loud bang echoes through the lab, because his body’s reaction doesn’t have jackshit to do with his logical mind.
He’s off his chair and on his knees, pressed against the worktable with his heart hammering and bile in the back of his throat. His body is pulsing, shaking with the dump of adrenaline in his system and he feels like his vision is flickering between Pepper rushing across the floor and the cave, like in those old movies.
“Tony?” Pepper lands down beside him.
“Don’t touch me,” he says, because if she does he’ll probably accidentally shove her halfway across the room and he really doesn’t want to do that.
Pepper tucks her hands beneath her knees, but leans in close. He can see the fear in her eyes and Tony feels like an idiot on top of the wash of shame that makes him hot all over. Jesus, it was just a fucking spilled gear or book or something.
“Tony?” Pepper tries again.
“I’m fine,” he says, trying to push himself up on shaking, unsteady legs. “Fine. Just, go away.”
There are very few moments where Pepper really goes in for the whole boss/employee dynamic, but this is one of them. She doesn’t want to leave (in the same way that she also wants to run, Tony can tell) but she does.
*
Tony watches the second hand on the clock sweep around and around. It takes a really, really long time before he feels like his legs are steady enough to hold his weight.
Re: Commentfic, "After the War," Tony Stark, PTSD
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